good 4 am, loyal fans.
ok.. so it isn't good. i just squashed my leg on the bottom of my desk.
it's not like i really have anything interesting to say... except that i get to talk to my doctor today
and that is a good thing. hmmmm tuesday. speaking of tuesdays... this weekend is the krewe of aphrodite
mardi gras celebration down in p-town. i am going to try to go down for it. though i don't expect to do tons of partying. more like spend some time with my friend linda, tia, ab, ilene and the rest of the portland world, hang with my little sisters and wish denis and kate and calvin still lived down there.

i am anxious for d-man to put up more pictures of calvin. Every time i talk to the McCarthys on the phone he is a gurgling yelling screaming laughing typhoon of noise in the background. It makes me very sad that i am not around him. he is the cutest and most wonderful thing ever.

babies. yum. so many of the lovely people in my life are starting families. now is when i really come into my own as weird uncle nick. i am officially half time jealous half time relieved. jealous because calvin is the neatest and relieved because i get to go home and hand him back. i keep thinking about the adage "he who laughs last, laughs loudest" and i know that i am eventually in deep doodoo, because i'm sure my day will come.

ok. i am going to go back and lay in bed and read and try to sleep. i picked up Ender's Shadow by orson scott card out of a box of books i am trying to give away and got sucked back in. So i will go have fun with that. It also forced me to go back through the box and remove all of the books by card that i thought i could live without. I know now that i was wrong. doomed to have to buy yet another bookshelf... or else do some rearranging. how does anyone ever sleep?

from the left side of the lake, signing off.

n.